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Trusting the LORD to make it happen
So it is only 44 days until the wedding, but you really need to have everything done sooner so I really only have about 2 weeks to get everything done and going. I have nothing done. All we have is the place, photographer(who donated their services-thank you lord:)) and each other. I know that is all it takes for the wedding, but I would really like to have it be a little more. I would like us to atleast look amazing and “bridal” in our pictures. But with no money and in serious serious need of seeing a doctor, there won’t be any money either, so I really don’t know what we are going to do:( I am just praying and believing the LORD will work everything out:)
I would love to have an actual beautifull wedding dress, and eric a nice wedding outfit. I want to make my own simple bouquet and then a cake. But all that ads up to be prity expensive even when you go cheap!!!
I just want our day to be sooooooooooo special and with not knowing what all is going on with my health I don’t want to live on the we can do it later thought because I can’t count on there always being a later. So LORD PLEASE JUST BLESS OUR DAY:)
Treasure the time you got!
It is days like this that remind me I need to quit worrying about all the junk and the unimportant details. It isn’t the wedding day that matters it is the marriage. I still would love to have a nice wedding, but in the big picture you have to treasure every minute because you may not have another and it can happen in a matter of seconds.
Today my 24 year old cousin lost her husband. He went missing on a kayaking trip yesterday and they found him today trapped under water in a log jam. She is alone now and without that other half, I can’t even beggin to imagine:( It just makes you realize to treasure every minute. To appreciate even the little things and not to complain about the stupid things. My heart and prayers are with her right now as she is so lost I am sure.
LORD I don’t understand this, but I will trust in you that you will comfort everyone and especially my cousin and that you will turn this tragedy into a blessing somehow.
It is like the garth brooks song” there are two dates that will be wrote on the stone, but the only things that matters are what happen in that little dash there inbetween.”
Trying to stay positive:)
I know this blog is prity depressing, but I am REALLY trying to stay positive. But I am only 51 days out from my wedding and it doesn’t even feel like I am getting married:( Others are scrambling to get final dress fittings, rsvps returned, vendor things finalized, etc. Me I just live my wedding life through weddingbee. I have nothing to do since we are realyy doing nothing:( With my health getting worse and no money to even see a doctor we have NO MONEY to put towards anything. I know this shouldn’t matter and I know I am lucky to have my fiance and to finally be getting to say I do, but we have waited all this time to have the special day and again nothing and all because of me being sick. Atleast I know he is in ti for better or worse and in sickness and in health, I just wish I didn’t bring more of the sickness and worse.
He feels terrible for not being able to give me that day. And to have those special things for us. I tell him it is ok and we can’t have everything in life we want and he said “that is one day you should have your way” Making me cry right now even saying it:( He is sooooo great and I am sooo lucky just hard not to be sad for missing all the memories with your friends. I see all the stuff on weddingbee for peoples parties and such and I want that, I know that sounds like a spoiled child, but it is something I always looked forward to. But don’t have.
I don’t even have a wedding dress to wear and yes you can get something cheap, but we can’t even afford cheap and I don’t want just something to throw on I want it to be something I love. I even had a very sweet few people offer their dresses but they have all been to small and the one that may possibly fit I am not sure I am going to have enough for shipping so we will see.
SEE DEPRESSING, but I try and just remind myself that I am just lucky to have my fiance and that maybe someday we can have a real wedding. I do LOTS AND LOTS OF PRAYING TO:)
So my update on the dress scam contest!!!!
So yes it was a scam and the lady is persistent in keeping doing it. I did my part and turned it over to the proper authorities and they will be dealing with it now!!! Thank gosh big burden off of my shoulders. I will post the links that show you what went on and how she repeatedly tried to change her story adn would get caught in lies. The last link with the workd enough in it was just iceing on the liar liar pants on fire cake!!! She says in there that she sent me an emaiill, which she didn’t of course telling me why they didn’t go through with the contest, yet on the thread for the new contest they tried to start their was a suposed annonymous “winner” that came forward. Which was actually her under yet another username. Then she says I posted her personal info, but I didn’t that was another user that I had never even spoke to till she posted the info and the info she got from this ladys posts and companies that she found by googleing her, so anyone could get that info. She is just trying to make me look bad, but only keeps making herself lood bad!!! I am just glad that someone else is monitoring it all now and the proper people:) A lot off my shoulders:)
Just is a bummer that there are people in this workld that have to treat others crappy and lie to make their money. Especially when honest people are working so hard and can’t get no where. Thanks to everyone for the support and help. Thanks to the bees for all the help and really there were a lot doing there own investigations that I didn’t even know about so I guess I wasn’t alone:)
Links are below for information on this:
http://boards.weddingbee.com/topic/free-dress-for-deserving-bride-contest-contestants
http://classifieds.weddingbee.com/topic/win-a-free-wedding-dress
http://classifieds.weddingbee.com/topic/wedding-contest
http://classifieds.weddingbee.com/topic/enough
Didn’t win the dream dress
Can’t remember if I had wrote how I had entered a dress contest on the weddingbee.com site. It was put on by an online store and was for needy brides. You posted a short version of your story and then they gave away two dresses to the top two brides they thought deserved it most. This was my last hope as of now on getting an actual wedding dress. I waited and they were suppose to anounce the winner July 25th. About 8 pm they finally posted that they ahd emailed the two winners and they were so happy to recieve this news.
I was crushed to say the least. I mean I know it was a contest but it only had 40 girls and I just was hopeing and praying it would be me. But here is my thing why won’t they say who won. They have not realeased any names. They are putting dresses on their website for discount for all the girls who did not win. I am really questioning if there even was a winner and if this wasn’t just a way to get girls to purchase dresses from them. I am not the only girl who feels like this either. I have contacted the main person at weddingbee about the situation but have not heard back on if they are looking into it or anything. I hope that I am not right because that would just be sooooooooooooo wrong for someone to do that to a bunch of especially needy brides. The stories werree real and heartbreaking. I hope they find something out soon.
Not much else is up now. No changes. Just trying to come up with ideas on how to make our day special just the two of us:) I am just happy to be marrying the most amazing man in the world:)
“If your going through hell just keep on going….”
So it has been trying again to say the least. I am REALLY REALLY trying to keep a good attitude and just Trust the lord, but it is hard not to get down sometimes.
I still have not found a job and since we live 40 miles from the closest town and it isn’t very big it is a challenge to say the least. But now we not only have no money, more bills going to collections and now htey will be coming to reposess my car. Oh soooo fun. I love Dave Ramsey and will follow his example from now on. No cash=NO BUY!!!!
The wedding is 63 days away and we have no money. So unless a miracle happens and that is what we are praying for there will be no fancy clothes for the MR and no Dress for me:( So prity much we will be down to the courthouse type wedding just in a prettier location atleast:)
Just so hard not to be sad and disapointed. My fiance is not really even excited about the day because he knows it isn’t how we both had pictured it. But I remind myself that atleast we get to be husband and wife:) That will be awesome.
Huge news and a big Thank you LORD:)
I got an email the other day from a photographer that we really liked and had gotten price quotes and such from. But when we realized we weren’t going to be able to afford the whole wedding we wrote them and just thanked them for all the time and such and told them we just weren’t going to be able to afford it but thank you again for their time and kindness.
They wrote us back and have offered to shoot our wedding and wedding pictures for us for free:) I was so shocked I just started crying. It was an answer to a huge prayer and I am sooooooooooooo very very excited:)
So now my last biggest problem is a dress. I still have not found one. The one I want could be custom made by a designer for me for $300 but we just can’t do that when we need to get me to the doctor so I really don’t know what I am going to do. But I am sure something will work out:)
The dress I wanted him to make was going to be a strapless pick up ball gown style but I wanted it makde out of cotton eyelet fabric for a more country look and I was going to have our wedding colors added into it somehow(chocolate&Copper) like a sash or border on the bodice. Something like that:) I think it would be simple yet elegant. SO me:) Especially with my cowboy boots on under it:) hee hee!!!!
Well pray pray pray is what I will do:) Thank you to all who are praying for us:) It means A LOT!!!!
I have adjusted my attitude:)
I have really really been working on this. I realized I was really being negative about everything and I was really hurt by a lot of people in this and that is when I realized they don’t care and I can’t make them so why am I letting them ruin this for us? But most of all I realized I am letting my fiance down by my attitude and even more I am not trusting GOD in all this.
I just need to trust GOD to take care of us in all our situations in our life and especially our wedding day. I am so excited to declare before the LORD that I love this man and that I want to spend the rest of eternity with him:) I just need to remember it isn’t about dresses, tuxes, decor and people. It is about us and GOD:) I am praying that the LORD will bless this day for us in amazing surprising ways. To make it more memorable than we could have ever imagined:)
I am still hopeing for atleast the beautifull dress though;) Never know, I will keep looking and who knows what the LORD will do:)
I had a very very wonderfull lady give me this scripture today and is soooooooo very true and I just need to hang on to it…..
Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future.”
So LORD I am trusting you:)
